It has been said, "boy you sure have a stong will." Yes, I can be stubborn. Just the other day, I threw a 2 year old temper tantrum about a candy bar....a candy bar!
"I want a candy bar!" I yelled. "and, I hate rules...and I hate people telling me what to do...I want to do what I want to do when I want to do it....!" There was more, but you get the idea. My daughter Anna said, "Mom, what is your problem?" It all boiled down to the fact that I couldn't eat that candy bar without feeling guilty! I figured out the weight watcher points and it just wasn't worth it! But, I wanted it..."why do I have to count these stupid points anyway....I want a big mac with fries!" (WAAA!)
I told you, a big 2 year old tantrum. I would NEVER let my kids act like this. I wouldn't tolerate it. Someone must have tolerated it in me - bless her heart!
This had me thinking about my being stubborn and having a strong will. I have a strong will, but for all the wrong reasons.
I wish I could say that I used my strong will toward my health and better eating habits - nope failed. I've fallen off the wagon and gained back 10 or so pounds. I think of ways to take less steps to accomplish my work!
Or, I wish I could say, I put my strong will to good use in my faith and relationship with Jesus - nope failed. I have been the most unfaithful person around. I struggle with finding the time to pray and read my bible. And, now I'm helping my brother Frank - as a Sunday School teacher! How did that happen?
Or, I wish I could say, I put my strong will to good use in making me keep my house clean and doing daily chores - nope failed at that too. I am a hoarder and have junk all over. I fight with myself daily to throw anything away. In fact, I have pole buildings full of stuff I should get rid of!
So, in light of my revelation and lack of "using" my strong will for good - (with great power comes great responsiblity...super hero mode). I am going to use my strong will against myself!
This may sound silly, but I'm a simple minded person. Wish me luck and if you pray - say some for me. At times I can really see just how "broken" I am.
Blessings from Ringle, Wisconsin.
"I want a candy bar!" I yelled. "and, I hate rules...and I hate people telling me what to do...I want to do what I want to do when I want to do it....!" There was more, but you get the idea. My daughter Anna said, "Mom, what is your problem?" It all boiled down to the fact that I couldn't eat that candy bar without feeling guilty! I figured out the weight watcher points and it just wasn't worth it! But, I wanted it..."why do I have to count these stupid points anyway....I want a big mac with fries!" (WAAA!)
I told you, a big 2 year old tantrum. I would NEVER let my kids act like this. I wouldn't tolerate it. Someone must have tolerated it in me - bless her heart!
This had me thinking about my being stubborn and having a strong will. I have a strong will, but for all the wrong reasons.
I wish I could say that I used my strong will toward my health and better eating habits - nope failed. I've fallen off the wagon and gained back 10 or so pounds. I think of ways to take less steps to accomplish my work!
Or, I wish I could say, I put my strong will to good use in my faith and relationship with Jesus - nope failed. I have been the most unfaithful person around. I struggle with finding the time to pray and read my bible. And, now I'm helping my brother Frank - as a Sunday School teacher! How did that happen?
Or, I wish I could say, I put my strong will to good use in making me keep my house clean and doing daily chores - nope failed at that too. I am a hoarder and have junk all over. I fight with myself daily to throw anything away. In fact, I have pole buildings full of stuff I should get rid of!
So, in light of my revelation and lack of "using" my strong will for good - (with great power comes great responsiblity...super hero mode). I am going to use my strong will against myself!
This may sound silly, but I'm a simple minded person. Wish me luck and if you pray - say some for me. At times I can really see just how "broken" I am.
Blessings from Ringle, Wisconsin.
oh, heck. i am cracked and broken and resistant to what is best for me every.single.day... good luck to you.
ReplyDeleteWe all are, dear..God bless.. xo
ReplyDeletewell, that goes triplicate...me too, but still smiling~
ReplyDeleteWhat an awesome revelation God has given you, Jacky! You can use your strong will against yourself; ultimately empowering yourself to do the things God would have you to do! You win! Yay! Can't wait to read more! Blessings from Bama!
ReplyDeleteOh Jacky, been there - done that over and over again. I know you are strong willed, and a lot of people in your community count on you. Don't be so harsh on yourself, fall down, get up and carry on like only you can. As I was coughing up a lung the other day I started sliding down the self pity slide then God set a situation much worse than mine in front of my eyes and I straightened right up! Just like getttng grabbed by the ankles and snapped back into shape (thank God round is a shape :) )
ReplyDeleteI'll come clean it out for you~~hikchik
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