Wednesday, September 26, 2018

When You are Between "I Got This to Throwing in the Towel"

And that my friends is where I am at....I hate to even admit it.  I "got this" or should I just "throw in the towel?"  Have you ever been here?  


"I got this" - something you can deal with or handle.
"Throwing in the towel" - admitting defeat.  

My post today will be our ladies bible study.  I know, a bible study about this?  "This" is exactly what a bible study should be about, it's when you need one the most.  

Truthfully and unfortunately, I do this to myself.  I could be relaxing, doing nothing I guess, but that's not me.   I told my mother-in-law that I feel I'm more busy now then when my girls were home.  Part of it is, I like to do too many things.  I also am trying to "build" my business.  Even though, I've been doing what I do for over 25 years.  However, there wasn't social media back then.  I mean, all the pictures, accounts, pages are necessary in today's world.  Getting "connected" and "collaborating" with the "right" people is essential.   So, with that said...I'm closer to throwing in the towel!  

I try, I do, but sometimes I feel like that picked last kid again....I want to play with the "big dogs" only they don't want to with me.  You might not think this is that way, but it's true.  I went all they way to another state to do a show where all my favorites were, thinking I would make some new "friends" - silly me....(wink, wink).  I'm just not what you think the face behind what I do is, wait....or, maybe it is...LOL  Either way, I did throw in the towel on that one.   

Some days, I think, O.K. you've "got this" and with the Lord's help I usually do.   My sister Lynn says this all the time, "I'm not worried about it, Jesus will take care of it."  At the time I'm thinking...how do you think He is going to do that!  I think you, as in me too, need to take care of it, whatever the it is.  Not that I think we need to sit back, do what we want the way we want to and then when trouble comes say "well, Jesus will take care of it."   That's not how we should live.  

The "Jesus will take care of it" comes from faith.  We can look back on the past, things He helped us through and calm our anxiety with that knowledge.  "He's got this" there is no I in it!  Once you understand that, you're one step closer to NOT throwing in the towel.  

I can't help but think about David and all his troubles in his life.  He did "it" to himself too!  Psalms is the poetic documentation of it.  He sure seems to have had is moments of "I got this to throwing in the towel" - being chosen, killing a giant, being favored, Saul chasing him, his rise and fall as King, his short comings in fidelity...come on David throw in the towel already!  He kept going and shared it in his blog called Psalms, chapter 34 is a good reference to it.  

Psalms 34:4:  "I sought the Lord and he heard me and delivered me from all my fears."  

Psalms 34:17:  "And the righteous cry, and the Lord heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles."

Psalms 34:19:  "Many are the afflictions of the righteous, But the Lord delivers him out of them all."

So, Lord help me help myself.  As we turn the calendar page into October and the race is on for Ringle Harvest Day, 2 quick barn sales here at the farm and a trip with my daughter Anna, "Jesus, please take care of it."  I will move ahead one day at a time, keeping in mind "He has this" I need to have faith that it will all turn out the way it's supposed to.  If anything good come from it all - to HIM be the glory!

Blessings from Ringle, Wisconsin.  





  

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